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Alone

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You stand alone, and hope that someone will join you.

Looking back over your shoulder you see your friends, laughing.

You wonder if any of them even realize you're ten feet away,
    Staring at the sky.


None of them think like you.

If they did, they would be right beside you, gazing at the sky in silence.

No one ever has.

It's always only you.

Sometimes you wonder what it would feel like if someone actually wanted to always be
standing with you- away from the group.

They're all your friends, but you feel if someone actually followed you to be an "outcast,"
you would form a permanent bond with them.

But of course, if they knew you desired for them to join you,
    That would defeat the purpose.


It would ruin the test.

That's why you can never let anyone know.

You have to bear this aching emptiness in silence, because to tell someone your deepest hope,
    Well, they might do it out of pity, and then the moment would never truly exist.


Perhaps, if you are lucky, one day it will be a boy who notices you are alone.

Maybe then you can be best friends.

That would be nice.

You know you're not the same as them,
    the others that is.


You know you think a little differently.

You don't really mind.

You just...

You just really want someone to acknowledge your existence,
    without you having asked.


There was someone once.

He found you sitting alone in the night, watching the sky.

He sat with you and talked to you. You really wanted to be his friend.

So badly.

You met with him for a few weeks.

But one day he was gone.

You never saw him again.

It hurts.

But you'll never tell anyone that.

Ever.


And that's okay.

At least that's what you tell yourself.

You know you're stronger than this.

You are.

You have to be.
Guys..... you didn't read this. It's stupid. It's emotional. And it's pointless. I don't know I just needed to put this somewhere for a bit. I'll probably take it down shortly.

I really don't want to sound dramatic because gosh this is stupid and it makes me angry.

But I wanted to put this where no one I really know it real life would read it, because they'd probably freak out about it a bit.

So yeah. Ignore me. haha
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CavaliereArts's avatar
Wow... just... wow. Words cannot describe it; it's a perfect description of the feeling... beyond excellent writing, and I truly hope you find the guy again, or someone like him :)